We've officially been home for 24 hrs!! It has been a very heartwarming and busy time!
We met the boys' caseworker halfway yesterday while Hails and Zach were at school. We were so happy to see them again and anxious to get them home. When she opened the car door and we saw their little faces peering back at us, it was hard not to cry. The joy that welled up inside me was overwhelming. They looked a little scared, a little tired and like their noses had been running. We held them and talked to them and kissed them. Elijah was very happy that Mama was ready with goldfish crackers and apple juice!
The caseworker and I talked about how the pick up and the ride over went. She said foster mom was brave, but broken over the situation. We loaded up the many bags of toys, clothes and medical supplies into our van and set out to take our new babies and all of their worldly possessions home. The ride went very smoothly; the boys napped and Josh and I talked excitedly.
The afternoon was spent unpacking, organizing, snuggling and snacking. Foster mom sent so many nice outfits for them, some still had tags on them! She sent all of their favorite toys, including a special teddy bear that she had programmed to say 'Elijah'. We were really touched by that. It told us that not only did she remember what his new name would be, she accepted it, and was trying to help us teach it to him.
Bonding is going really really well. Isaiah seemed to not be feeling well, so after dinner, I took him to my room to snuggle him and sing to him. He fell asleep in my arms. I forgot how amazing that feels. He is such a happy baby. He is always smiling or laughing or cooing. Elijah is also very happy, and very spunky! His little personality is really coming through. At one point he was looking for me and called "Mama, Mama!" My heart melted!! And at bedtime, when Josh was saying goodnight, Eli said "Dada, Dada!" Sigh... Bedtime went smoothly, only a few tears and they were out.
We felt that it was important to have some quality time with Hailey and Zach after the boys went to bed. We rented a movie and got some ice cream, and cuddled up for the night. It was good for the soul.
Foster mom text me before I went to bed to make sure the boys were feeling better and to see if we found everything we needed. I assured her they were doing great and thanked her for everything. I really am sorry for what she's going through, but I'm so grateful for everything she's done for us and for them.
The two kiddos that I expected to get up early slept in until 7:30am this morning and my late sleepers woke up at 6:00am anxious to spend more time with their new little brothers. We were greeted with smiles and cuddles! We got everyone changed, medicated, situated and fed by 8:30. We spent the morning playing, dancing and establishing boundaries and a routine.
We laid the boys down for their nap and decided to work together to straighten up the house and work on a little laundry. So now we're relaxing. My my my, I have taken this for granted in the past! I have a feeling I'm going to really enjoy nap time everyday :)
It's amazing how natural this all feels, it's as though I've always known them. It's only been one day and already I can't imagine our lives without them in it... So what has changed in the last 24 hrs? Well, my house is filled with the sounds of musical toys and giggles, there is a new set of fingerprints a little lower on my walls, everything is being cut into bite sized pieces and my fridge is proudly displaying a photo of another family never to be forgotten. I'm feeling a strange combination of elation, exhaustion, joy and finally...peace. <3
Saturday, February 26, 2011
Wednesday, February 23, 2011
Cheerios, giggles and guilt...
Has it already been a week? Time is flying by so fast...
Our McDonald's play date on Sunday went wonderfully. We had a blast hanging out with the boys and getting to know each other better. Afterwords, we spent a few hours just hanging out with foster mom and all of the kids (our 2, her 2, and our shared 2). Josh put together their new playhouse (he's so sweet) and she and I went over my obnoxiously long list of questions. As our visit concluded, we hugged and said goodbye. We confirmed our plans to pick up the boys the next day for our overnight visit.
We arrived right at 11:00am and eagerly rang the bell. The door opened and through the screen we could hear little baby hellos and cooing. We hugged and hello'ed like old friends, and made ourselves at home on the floor with the kids. Foster mom had everything all ready for us; clothes, formula, meds, instructions. We went over the boys' feeding, sleeping and medicine schedule one more time. We headed out to try and match up nap time with the hour and half long car ride back to our house. Foster mom's 8 year old son admitted that he was scared he'd never see his little brothers again. Josh promised him that he would. Foster mom started to tear up, so we took that as our cue to leave. The ride home was a blast. We all danced and giggled the whole way home! I sat in the middle, as official toy retriever and goldfish administrator. No one napped, not even close.
Josh held Isaiah, I held Elijah, and Hailey and Zach led us into the house, for the first time, we were all home, together. It felt so good. We changed diapers and got cleaned up. The dogs came in to inspect the newbies and thoroughly sniffed and licked them until they were sure we were safe. The boys giggled and pet the pups, it was really cute. We made Elijah's favorite for dinner - macaroni and cheese with hot dogs in it! He ate 2 helpings and drank some milk. After baths and fresh jammies, we snuggled on the couch and played with toys and read books. At 7:30, we headed to their room for bed. Foster mom had warned us that they would cry for just a few minutes but they would go to sleep if left alone, and sleep 12 hours. I wondered if it was some kind of trick....it sounded too good to be true. In true Trina fashion, I tried everything I could think of to calm them for a good half hour, before I conceded to the hallway to sit outside their door and try not to cry, myself. After about ten minutes, like magic...it was silent!! Hailey and Zach anxiously guarded the baby monitor and alerted us to every sound they heard, which turned out to be Isaiah's feeding machine every time.
Like clockwork, I woke every couple of hours to stare at the monitor. Once I was sure they were asleep, I drifted back off. I woke up at 6:00am to Hailey standing over me, alerting me that Isaiah's feeding machine was beeping. I told her I knew, but that it just meant it was done. She was relieved and went back to bed. My favorite part of the whole day was going into their room this morning to see their sleepy, smiley faces looking back at me! :) It was absolutely priceless.
The morning was filled with cheerios, bananas, more dancing, giggles and playing. We dropped Hailey and Zach off, and headed on out to the other side of town to drop our babies back off. The drive went smoothly, and as Murphy's Law would have it, both of them fell asleep about a mile from their foster home.
Foster mom greeted us, and the boys seemed happy to see her again. Foster mom gave us a beautiful potted orchid, as a gift from her family. We thanked her and hugged her, touched by her kind gesture. We talked about how the night went for each of us,; how noisy my house was this morning and how quiet hers was. Looking back on it, this was a good trial run for all us. We had a heart to heart about how we were all feeling. We admitted that we felt guilty, knowing that in order for us to have this joy, she had to have this pain. She admitted that while she is hurting, she knows it's not our fault and doesn't blame us. We comforted each other and agreed that we all just want what's best for Elijah and Isaiah. We asked if we could have a copy of the family picture she had proudly displayed in her living room. We want to put it in the boys' room to help them remember her and the wonderful care she has given them over the past year. I told her that I dodn't want to go too long without getting together for a visit, and she said she didn't want to interfere with our bonding process with the boys. We decided that phone calls, emails and picture would be a good start and we'd work up to play dates in the near future. We left with smiles on our faces, but inside I felt awful.
Josh and I verbally vomited the whole way home, analyzing the situation from every angle. We both still feel a sense of guilt for the pain that foster mom is in, and after only one day of playing house with the boys, we miss them so much. I cried and felt sick to my stomach, like an executioner, just doing his job, but still the one to pull the trigger and end someone's life. I know that this feeling will pass with time, and we will all heal and grow. God will not lead us to it, without guiding us through it.
So for now, I will put my house back together and wash tiny jammies, knowing that it will only be a few short days until it will all be undone, and I couldn't be more excited for that. <3
Our McDonald's play date on Sunday went wonderfully. We had a blast hanging out with the boys and getting to know each other better. Afterwords, we spent a few hours just hanging out with foster mom and all of the kids (our 2, her 2, and our shared 2). Josh put together their new playhouse (he's so sweet) and she and I went over my obnoxiously long list of questions. As our visit concluded, we hugged and said goodbye. We confirmed our plans to pick up the boys the next day for our overnight visit.
We arrived right at 11:00am and eagerly rang the bell. The door opened and through the screen we could hear little baby hellos and cooing. We hugged and hello'ed like old friends, and made ourselves at home on the floor with the kids. Foster mom had everything all ready for us; clothes, formula, meds, instructions. We went over the boys' feeding, sleeping and medicine schedule one more time. We headed out to try and match up nap time with the hour and half long car ride back to our house. Foster mom's 8 year old son admitted that he was scared he'd never see his little brothers again. Josh promised him that he would. Foster mom started to tear up, so we took that as our cue to leave. The ride home was a blast. We all danced and giggled the whole way home! I sat in the middle, as official toy retriever and goldfish administrator. No one napped, not even close.
Josh held Isaiah, I held Elijah, and Hailey and Zach led us into the house, for the first time, we were all home, together. It felt so good. We changed diapers and got cleaned up. The dogs came in to inspect the newbies and thoroughly sniffed and licked them until they were sure we were safe. The boys giggled and pet the pups, it was really cute. We made Elijah's favorite for dinner - macaroni and cheese with hot dogs in it! He ate 2 helpings and drank some milk. After baths and fresh jammies, we snuggled on the couch and played with toys and read books. At 7:30, we headed to their room for bed. Foster mom had warned us that they would cry for just a few minutes but they would go to sleep if left alone, and sleep 12 hours. I wondered if it was some kind of trick....it sounded too good to be true. In true Trina fashion, I tried everything I could think of to calm them for a good half hour, before I conceded to the hallway to sit outside their door and try not to cry, myself. After about ten minutes, like magic...it was silent!! Hailey and Zach anxiously guarded the baby monitor and alerted us to every sound they heard, which turned out to be Isaiah's feeding machine every time.
Like clockwork, I woke every couple of hours to stare at the monitor. Once I was sure they were asleep, I drifted back off. I woke up at 6:00am to Hailey standing over me, alerting me that Isaiah's feeding machine was beeping. I told her I knew, but that it just meant it was done. She was relieved and went back to bed. My favorite part of the whole day was going into their room this morning to see their sleepy, smiley faces looking back at me! :) It was absolutely priceless.
The morning was filled with cheerios, bananas, more dancing, giggles and playing. We dropped Hailey and Zach off, and headed on out to the other side of town to drop our babies back off. The drive went smoothly, and as Murphy's Law would have it, both of them fell asleep about a mile from their foster home.
Foster mom greeted us, and the boys seemed happy to see her again. Foster mom gave us a beautiful potted orchid, as a gift from her family. We thanked her and hugged her, touched by her kind gesture. We talked about how the night went for each of us,; how noisy my house was this morning and how quiet hers was. Looking back on it, this was a good trial run for all us. We had a heart to heart about how we were all feeling. We admitted that we felt guilty, knowing that in order for us to have this joy, she had to have this pain. She admitted that while she is hurting, she knows it's not our fault and doesn't blame us. We comforted each other and agreed that we all just want what's best for Elijah and Isaiah. We asked if we could have a copy of the family picture she had proudly displayed in her living room. We want to put it in the boys' room to help them remember her and the wonderful care she has given them over the past year. I told her that I dodn't want to go too long without getting together for a visit, and she said she didn't want to interfere with our bonding process with the boys. We decided that phone calls, emails and picture would be a good start and we'd work up to play dates in the near future. We left with smiles on our faces, but inside I felt awful.
Josh and I verbally vomited the whole way home, analyzing the situation from every angle. We both still feel a sense of guilt for the pain that foster mom is in, and after only one day of playing house with the boys, we miss them so much. I cried and felt sick to my stomach, like an executioner, just doing his job, but still the one to pull the trigger and end someone's life. I know that this feeling will pass with time, and we will all heal and grow. God will not lead us to it, without guiding us through it.
So for now, I will put my house back together and wash tiny jammies, knowing that it will only be a few short days until it will all be undone, and I couldn't be more excited for that. <3
Tuesday, February 15, 2011
Love at First Sight...
Today is a day I will never forget. It has been etched into my heart, where I will protect it and cherish it, forever...
The GPS said 1 hour 29 minutes as we set out to meet our babies. We were prepared for the ride...DS's, Mad Libs, snacks, waters, camera. The drive went by pretty fast, only one potty break and a trip to the store for flowers. We pulled up to the house and found our caseworker already waiting for us. Instantly, we felt a little better, just knowing she was there for us.
We took a deep breath and rang the bell. Foster mom answered right away and greeted us in. After brief introductions, we met Isaiah. He was sitting up so good in his Bumbo seat, just checking us all out. Foster mom placed him in my lap, and we just stared into each other's eyes. His eyes are so beautiful and expressive. He smiled at me and giggled when my hair tickled his face. He and Hailey had fun playing toss and retrieve with the stuffed animal we brought him. Josh and I played 'pass the baby' all hour and he just smiled and babbled. It was amazing.
Elijah hid behind his foster dad for the first half hour, leery of the new strangers. Zach was able to break through by getting down on the floor and playing with him. They played there for most of the visit, throwing balls and running to get them. Josh and I each tried to hold Elijah, but he whined and wanted down right away. As he watched us talk to his foster parents and play with his brother, he seemed to get more comfortable. He started offering toys to Josh to play with and posing for pictures. He was absolutely adorable!
The hour went by all too fast. We all felt sad when it was time to go, Hailey even teared up a little. We agreed that one more visit before our overnight would be good for Elijah. So we are meeting for a lunch date next Sunday, and can't wait!!! Then we'll pick them up again on Monday for our overnight visit. The kids don't have school that day, so they are really excited!
Josh decided to try one last time, and scooped up Elijah for a hug. This time, Elijah just smiled and babbled at him, posing for pictures. I reached out to see if he'd come to me, and he did. It felt so good to hold him. I told him goodbye and gave him a kiss, but he started to cry and reach for me when I tried to set him down. I picked him back up and he stopped. We played this game a few more times, before foster dad had to just take him inside.
Our visit was ending, so foster mom and I exchanged phone numbers and email addresses. I asked if I could give her a hug. She said sure, so we leaned in to hug and accidentally almost kissed. We both laughed and it really eased the tension. She asked if we could stay in touch. I assured her that we would, and said I'd love for her to be a part of our extended family too. I really hope we can, and believe we will.
The boys could not have been sweeter. They are both so special and amazing in their own unique ways. They touched us so deeply. Everything we've been through up until now, has been worth the wait. We can't stop smiling and going over and over the details of the day.
What a perfect day. I couldn't not have asked for more. I've never felt more blessed.
The GPS said 1 hour 29 minutes as we set out to meet our babies. We were prepared for the ride...DS's, Mad Libs, snacks, waters, camera. The drive went by pretty fast, only one potty break and a trip to the store for flowers. We pulled up to the house and found our caseworker already waiting for us. Instantly, we felt a little better, just knowing she was there for us.
We took a deep breath and rang the bell. Foster mom answered right away and greeted us in. After brief introductions, we met Isaiah. He was sitting up so good in his Bumbo seat, just checking us all out. Foster mom placed him in my lap, and we just stared into each other's eyes. His eyes are so beautiful and expressive. He smiled at me and giggled when my hair tickled his face. He and Hailey had fun playing toss and retrieve with the stuffed animal we brought him. Josh and I played 'pass the baby' all hour and he just smiled and babbled. It was amazing.
Elijah hid behind his foster dad for the first half hour, leery of the new strangers. Zach was able to break through by getting down on the floor and playing with him. They played there for most of the visit, throwing balls and running to get them. Josh and I each tried to hold Elijah, but he whined and wanted down right away. As he watched us talk to his foster parents and play with his brother, he seemed to get more comfortable. He started offering toys to Josh to play with and posing for pictures. He was absolutely adorable!
The hour went by all too fast. We all felt sad when it was time to go, Hailey even teared up a little. We agreed that one more visit before our overnight would be good for Elijah. So we are meeting for a lunch date next Sunday, and can't wait!!! Then we'll pick them up again on Monday for our overnight visit. The kids don't have school that day, so they are really excited!
Josh decided to try one last time, and scooped up Elijah for a hug. This time, Elijah just smiled and babbled at him, posing for pictures. I reached out to see if he'd come to me, and he did. It felt so good to hold him. I told him goodbye and gave him a kiss, but he started to cry and reach for me when I tried to set him down. I picked him back up and he stopped. We played this game a few more times, before foster dad had to just take him inside.
Our visit was ending, so foster mom and I exchanged phone numbers and email addresses. I asked if I could give her a hug. She said sure, so we leaned in to hug and accidentally almost kissed. We both laughed and it really eased the tension. She asked if we could stay in touch. I assured her that we would, and said I'd love for her to be a part of our extended family too. I really hope we can, and believe we will.
The boys could not have been sweeter. They are both so special and amazing in their own unique ways. They touched us so deeply. Everything we've been through up until now, has been worth the wait. We can't stop smiling and going over and over the details of the day.
What a perfect day. I couldn't not have asked for more. I've never felt more blessed.
Friday, February 11, 2011
A 3 donut 2 candybar kind of day...
Today has been a nail biting, self doubting, stress eating, deep sighing, happy tear crying, unforgettable kind of day!
The hearing was today at 1:30. We busied ourselves with helping our neighbor paint and re-decorate, so we wouldn't be staring at the phone all day. I was doing really good until about 1:15, then I started feeling really anxious. That's when I ate the first candy bar.
About 3:00, we got a call from the boys' caseworker. She said the hearing well really well and that the judge decided the boys would be moving in with us! Foster mom was given the option to have the boys moved out immediately or to cooperate with us through a transition phase. Of course, she chose option B. At first, I was honestly mad. I was disappointed that the boys wouldn't be coming right away, and mad that foster mom was even getting options at this point. I was feeling like it was all her fault this was taking so long, and now we're making accommodations for her?? And who knows if she'll even comply! I laid in Josh's arms and cried some angry tears. Texts flooded in congratulating us, but all I felt was sad. I didn't want to feel sad. I didn't expect that I would feel sad.
Now, after hours have passed and I've had time to reflect, I see how silly I was being. This is our story. It's not perfect, but it's ours. In the end, no matter how we get there, I'm going to have my boys! My family will be complete! This transition will make it easier for them to let go of their past, and bond with us over time. It is best for them. Also, I feel very strongly now that God has been testing me all along. This whole process has been a test of faith. I can see the finish line just up ahead, but there is one more obstacle. I must be compassionate towards foster mom. I believe God wants me to be bring her flowers, give her a big hug, and thank her with all my heart for the love and care she has provided to my sons. I believe that in time we can be great friends, and that she can continue to be a huge part of the boys' lives. This hasn't been easy on any of us, but it is a positive thing. It's my job as the Mama to make sure everyone in this situation feels loved, accepted, special, wanted....even foster mom.
Our first visit is Tuesday. It will be at foster mom's house, since that is where the boys are most comfortable. We will then pick them up the next Sunday for an overnight visit and then they will move in on February 25th. I can't wait to look into their eyes for the very first time, to smell them, to hold them... It's hard to believe that in two weeks, we'll all be here, sleeping under the same roof...as a forever family <3
The hearing was today at 1:30. We busied ourselves with helping our neighbor paint and re-decorate, so we wouldn't be staring at the phone all day. I was doing really good until about 1:15, then I started feeling really anxious. That's when I ate the first candy bar.
About 3:00, we got a call from the boys' caseworker. She said the hearing well really well and that the judge decided the boys would be moving in with us! Foster mom was given the option to have the boys moved out immediately or to cooperate with us through a transition phase. Of course, she chose option B. At first, I was honestly mad. I was disappointed that the boys wouldn't be coming right away, and mad that foster mom was even getting options at this point. I was feeling like it was all her fault this was taking so long, and now we're making accommodations for her?? And who knows if she'll even comply! I laid in Josh's arms and cried some angry tears. Texts flooded in congratulating us, but all I felt was sad. I didn't want to feel sad. I didn't expect that I would feel sad.
Now, after hours have passed and I've had time to reflect, I see how silly I was being. This is our story. It's not perfect, but it's ours. In the end, no matter how we get there, I'm going to have my boys! My family will be complete! This transition will make it easier for them to let go of their past, and bond with us over time. It is best for them. Also, I feel very strongly now that God has been testing me all along. This whole process has been a test of faith. I can see the finish line just up ahead, but there is one more obstacle. I must be compassionate towards foster mom. I believe God wants me to be bring her flowers, give her a big hug, and thank her with all my heart for the love and care she has provided to my sons. I believe that in time we can be great friends, and that she can continue to be a huge part of the boys' lives. This hasn't been easy on any of us, but it is a positive thing. It's my job as the Mama to make sure everyone in this situation feels loved, accepted, special, wanted....even foster mom.
Our first visit is Tuesday. It will be at foster mom's house, since that is where the boys are most comfortable. We will then pick them up the next Sunday for an overnight visit and then they will move in on February 25th. I can't wait to look into their eyes for the very first time, to smell them, to hold them... It's hard to believe that in two weeks, we'll all be here, sleeping under the same roof...as a forever family <3
Thursday, February 3, 2011
Build It And They Will Come....Right?
What a week so far!!!!
Hailey's appointment went, surprisingly, really well. I was nervous when we first walked into the building. We sat in the waiting room, waiting for our turn. I noticed that a few of the kids looked really zoned out, a few were super hyper, ripping and tearing through the waiting room toys. I noticed that all of the parents looked the same; worried.
They called us back and did a few quick physical assessments. We were led to an office, with a desk, chairs and a some toys. The doctor asked Hailey a lot of questions, and she did very well answering them, even though I could tell she was nervous at times. (She has a cute little nervous chuckle she does, and she starts crossing and uncrossing her legs.) Then it was our turn. Hailey built beautiful towers of wooden blocks while we answered question after question about her personality, her quirks and her anxieties.
After about an hour of talking, the doctor told us that while Hails does display some symptoms of Asperger's Syndrome, there were not enough at play for there to be a concern. She did diagnose Hailey with ADHD and anxiety disorder, with a mild case of OCD. At first I was very surprised. I was under the impression that kids with ADHD were hyperactive and always running and climbing, but she explained that just as our bodies can be hyperactive, so can our minds. Hailey's mind is constantly on the go, making it very hard for her to concentrate or retain info. On top of it, her anxiety and obsessive thought patterns present another challenge in being able to focus. We came up with a care plan that involves teaching Hails relaxation techniques, attending cognitive behavioral therapy, a small does of anti-anxiety meds and putting together an accommodating plan with the school, to make it easier on her emotionally.
I left the appointment feeling so very proud of my girl. All this time, she's been battling these feelings and yet still maintains meaningful friendships, awesome grades and one of the bubbliest personalities of anyone I know. I have a new level of appreciation for her, and now that I understand what's going on in her big beautiful brain, I can help. I too was diagnosed with an anxiety disorder at her age. It was very confusing and scary for me, and I'm glad I will be able to relate to her. We'll do this together!
Zach survived his first solo slumber party with flying colors! (I snuggled his pillow pet and cried, but still!)
About the boys... So, we've been waiting all week to hear what the AG's office would recommend for the boys. Would they be coming to live with us one day this week? Would foster mom try and interfere again? We found out yesterday that foster mom was kind enough to file yet another motion on Monday, in an attempt to once again stall the adoption process. Today we learned that there will be a hearing next Friday, the 11th, to determine what will happen. It is likely the boys will be removed from her care and placed with us soon. While I do feel for her, my patience is running thin. It didn't have to be this way at all. I would have gladly shared our lives with her and welcomed her into our family. Who knows what will happen in the future though, God may move all of our hearts to that one day.
For now, I am ready. We are ready. Our home is clean, baby proofed, stocked up and ready to go. Build it and they will come, right? :)
Hailey's appointment went, surprisingly, really well. I was nervous when we first walked into the building. We sat in the waiting room, waiting for our turn. I noticed that a few of the kids looked really zoned out, a few were super hyper, ripping and tearing through the waiting room toys. I noticed that all of the parents looked the same; worried.
They called us back and did a few quick physical assessments. We were led to an office, with a desk, chairs and a some toys. The doctor asked Hailey a lot of questions, and she did very well answering them, even though I could tell she was nervous at times. (She has a cute little nervous chuckle she does, and she starts crossing and uncrossing her legs.) Then it was our turn. Hailey built beautiful towers of wooden blocks while we answered question after question about her personality, her quirks and her anxieties.
After about an hour of talking, the doctor told us that while Hails does display some symptoms of Asperger's Syndrome, there were not enough at play for there to be a concern. She did diagnose Hailey with ADHD and anxiety disorder, with a mild case of OCD. At first I was very surprised. I was under the impression that kids with ADHD were hyperactive and always running and climbing, but she explained that just as our bodies can be hyperactive, so can our minds. Hailey's mind is constantly on the go, making it very hard for her to concentrate or retain info. On top of it, her anxiety and obsessive thought patterns present another challenge in being able to focus. We came up with a care plan that involves teaching Hails relaxation techniques, attending cognitive behavioral therapy, a small does of anti-anxiety meds and putting together an accommodating plan with the school, to make it easier on her emotionally.
I left the appointment feeling so very proud of my girl. All this time, she's been battling these feelings and yet still maintains meaningful friendships, awesome grades and one of the bubbliest personalities of anyone I know. I have a new level of appreciation for her, and now that I understand what's going on in her big beautiful brain, I can help. I too was diagnosed with an anxiety disorder at her age. It was very confusing and scary for me, and I'm glad I will be able to relate to her. We'll do this together!
Zach survived his first solo slumber party with flying colors! (I snuggled his pillow pet and cried, but still!)
About the boys... So, we've been waiting all week to hear what the AG's office would recommend for the boys. Would they be coming to live with us one day this week? Would foster mom try and interfere again? We found out yesterday that foster mom was kind enough to file yet another motion on Monday, in an attempt to once again stall the adoption process. Today we learned that there will be a hearing next Friday, the 11th, to determine what will happen. It is likely the boys will be removed from her care and placed with us soon. While I do feel for her, my patience is running thin. It didn't have to be this way at all. I would have gladly shared our lives with her and welcomed her into our family. Who knows what will happen in the future though, God may move all of our hearts to that one day.
For now, I am ready. We are ready. Our home is clean, baby proofed, stocked up and ready to go. Build it and they will come, right? :)
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